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So, I'm fat. This is news to no-one, probably; certainly no-one who's met me.
Last weekend, I fell awkwardly, and twisted and bruised my knee, coming down on it hard trying not to jar my already-injured shoulder. It hurt a lot, and has been gradually getting better.
But because of it, I've been putting off doing anything that involves unnecessary stairs. The last couple of days, especially, my knee has been fine for walking on the flat, but not for stairs or hills. I have work to do on the second floor of the library, and there are three books I want on the third, but it's not urgent, so I've been delaying till I can take the stairs without pain.
I thought I was getting there, but this morning I stumbled getting off the bus and jarred hell out of my sore knee. Puts me back a couple of days of recovery, at least, I think. So I still can't go upstairs without pain.
Thing is? The library has a lift. UWA has Standards about disabled access. But to use the lift, you need a pass from the desk. You have to go ask them for it, explaining why you need it. (How I feel about making basic library access something disabled people have to go to specific trouble for is less than wholly approving, in any case, but that's not the entire issue, here.)
I cannot bring myself, as a fat person who doesn't *look* injured, to go to the desk and ask to use the lift, even though I can't get upstairs without significant pain right now. Because I think I'll look like a lazy fatass. And I don't want to be that person. (It's the same reason I hate being seen eating in public, especially at non-mealtimes, which I sometimes have to do due to hypoglycaemia. OH LOOK FAT PERSON EATING ALL THE TIME. Gah.)
I'm really not sure how I feel about all this.Current Location: Reid Library
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