Moments of Permanence - March 16th, 2011

About March 16th, 2011

Pondering... 11:26 am
So, currently a problem for me is that I don't get out of the house enough, or see people with whom I don't live enough. One of the things that comes up in addressing this is the notion of volunteer work.

I just came across a plan I might love - helping out with the Association for the Blind's Confident Living Program.

The problem?

I lack confidence in applying...

I could definitely do the Volunteer Driver thing. I have a clean C-class licence (well, R-E C, technically, but that's still C), and not only am I generally reasonably good at navigation etc, I can supply my own GPS navigation thing.

But what if I screw it up? What if my mental and physical health issues mean I fail at it somehow, or what if I just get bronchitis again and let them down because I'm sick for weeks?

I mean, part of me wants to write to the volunteer co-ordinator person and be, like... "So, I can totally do that driver thing. And I'd love to assist with the Woodwork program, though some of my woodwork skills are pretty rusty, but maybe I could sort of be an assistant assistant while I refresh them? It says they're urgently needed, so..."

... and the rest of me is more, "BUT YOU WILL SCREW IT UP AND EVERYTHING WILL BE RUINED FOR EVERYONE YOU WERE TRYING TO HELP. YOU WILL BE LATE AND THE PEOPLE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO DRIVE WILL BE TERRIFIED OF YOUR TERRIBLE DRIVING, BECAUSE THOSE NIGHTMARES YOU HAVE WHERE YOU'RE DRIVING A CAR AND THE BRAKES JUST DON'T MAKE IT STOP WILL COME TRUE".
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