Blogging instead of panicking

So, in about two hours, I'm due to have my first pap smear ever.

( Cut to spare the details from those who don't want them. Contains explanations of why this is, when I'm 28, and wibbling about my reasons why I feel panicky. This is not the Vagina Monologues. Potential trigger content. )

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Well, I survived. It still hurt and I had to lie down in the nurse's room for twenty minutes afterwards to keep from fainting, but I survived.