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From:[personal profile] sami
Date: June 7th, 2009 04:30 pm (UTC)
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I found similar links. The problem I perceive with it as a written language is that it's essentially diagrams of the movements, which makes sense, but is problematic for printing something novel-length, with necessary size.

I'm not saying it should fit a standard keyboard, at all. Or should look like existing written languages. What I'm saying is that my experience is that there exists, in at least one person, a sense of alienation that she doesn't have access to a written language that feels natural to her, and I see this as a major problem, because I believe languages are important. That people need to be able to tell their own stories, and if she can't, that's an injustice.

I tend to perceive injustice as being something that lessens everyone.

I'm not saying it's something I, personally, can control fixing. I have known deaf people all my life, but those particular people hate sign language and think it's stupid, so I never exactly had a lot of incentive to learn it - the only deaf people I had a direct interest in communicating with would have told me off for trying. (They consider sign language actually immoral and a tool of the oppression of the deaf, more or less.)

Ultimately?

Language is something I care about, deeply and passionately. I am genuinely distressed that even one person feels she has no language in which to write.

I'd had a shit of a day and was trying to find something positive to focus on, a way to try and help someone. As it turns out, I didn't think it through well enough, and I compounded that by expressing myself really, really badly.

I can cite historical precedent for orthographies coming late to established languages, like Gutenberg and Sequoyah, but it's not really the point. I was wrong.

I can't undo that. I can't undo any of the ways I've fucked up today. Knowing one of the others ended with me getting sutured and pools of my blood spattering half my house, it shouldn't feel like this is the worst, but it does, and I still can't fix that.

So yeah. I fail, I fucked up, I alienated [personal profile] lauredhel completely, and I really regret all of it, but I can't undo it, and I don't know what else to say.
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From:[personal profile] willow
Date: June 7th, 2009 04:37 pm (UTC)
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Fucking up sucks. Worse yet, fucking up when you're convinced you're just having your own thoughts in your own space, sorting things out - sucks even more.

I was worried by the later post mentioning the hospital visit. Hopefully you're stable now, and have access to resources to continue to be stable.
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From:[personal profile] sami
Date: June 7th, 2009 04:42 pm (UTC)
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Thank you for understanding that.

And, yeah. I'm stable enough now. I don't want to say too much in a public post, but... more or less exactly what you probably think, but it's all being taken care of.

On the bright side, there are risks I might take at other times that I totally won't at the moment, because this afternoon I was skating the edge of safe limits for blood loss, and even I can work out I need to be gentle with my body after that.
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